I find that my desire to move has been waning a little bit this week. The weather hasn't been that cold and I haven't been working that much so I haven't HAD to go out there. I've been hanging out with friends a lot. Even when it's like this, I still find myself looking at apartments. I think I'm just nervous about being alone out there, about not having a job, not having money, not living walking distance from my friends (or anything for that matter). I have thought, on more than one occasion, that maybe I could do it Sept '10 and then I would be completely out of credit card debt and have a shit ton of money saved but then I feel like if I don't do it now I probably never will. I keep thinking that if a Google job opens up out there sometime this summer then it's meant to be. That's just stupid, meant to be. What is meant to be? Is anything meant to be? b'shert. I mean, does b'shert really exist? I just don't know.

I bought pk some mike ditka salsa. I really don't want to have to check my bag in order to bring it to him but I might have to. I would hate to get up to the security check point and have to leave it. I could send it, but that might take a while.