cops

yesterday on my way to work there was a cop at ashland and augusta that was sorta standing on the corner like he wanted to direct traffic but wasn't really. i found it kinda funny that he was insistent this this guy turn right and the guy wasn't doing it because, well, he had a no turn on red and his light was red, but this cop would not let him just sit there. way to know the street signs copper.

man oh man

i suck at this. i knew it would get nice out and i would just stop writing. i mean, it's not perfect out but we had a couple of summer like days last week, which were amazing. this weekend the weather wasn't perfect but it was nice enough. there was some bbq action. there was some wedding action. there was some metal action. all in all a pretty good weekend.

i hit my face on the corner of my dresser and now i have this stupid circle bruise on my cheek.

there was this adorable 25 year old boy at ira and andrea's wedding this weekend. he was beardy. i enjoy beardy.

i'm doing this walk for the greater chicago food depository. my savings goal isn't that much. i hope i can raise it. so far i'm at 182.00 and i want 300. not bad. 100 of that pk donated.

i'm still behind on my actual savings goal. i have $4330 saved, will have $4470 by the end of the week, but that's still $500 less than i wanted. with my new move date, though, it's not as important since i'm going to put that money in my bank account before india and pay off one of my ccs completely and another one mostly.

i should probably get this towel off my head.

i didn't think it possible but the one person i thought would never let me down has let me down. i mean, i should have expected it to happen, as people do this sort of thing all the time. it ended up being not a super bad weekend, in spite of that. i hung out with my parents a lot, which probably did them a lot of good. i hate that they're going through this. i got to see rhys and noreen. i can't believe how adorable he is. it's amazing how they grow. the next time i see him he'll be enormous. it's nice to keep people like noreen in your life. we never see each other, very rarely, but it's always so good to see her.

i got into a little bike crash. i was on the sidewalk in front of my house riding onto the street and a lady was coming to the stop sign and i would have gotten hit by her, so i slammed on my brakes and well...must have hit the left one harder because i flipped over my handle bars and belly flopped on the sidewalk. i caught myself so i wouldn't smash my face. my bike landed on top of me. i was super embarassed and late for darts practice so i crawled out from under the bike and went to practice. i got to about belmont and things started to hurt. my hand hurt first and then my legs and boobs and then the back of my head. i think the bike hit the back of my head when it landed on me. my legs hit my handle bars before i fllipped. my boobs and hands landed on the ground. well, by the time i got the mulligans i couldn't move my left pinky and it was getting all swollen. i thought maybe i broke it, which would basically be a disaster. it's slowly gotten better. i showed it to nancy today and she said she thought it was probably just strained/sprained, which i agree. we'll see how tomorrow goes.

i had the worst headache today and the wind was so strong going home. it was horrible. i took half a vicodin when i got here. it feels a lot better and i'm almost ready for bed, despite it being 9:22pm.

you shouldn't go home again

i'm at my parent's house and it's just incredibly depressing. they're having a garage sale, and it's like our whole lives are out there. they can't afford anything. i looked at my mom's arm today. her elbow is swollen and she can't get it bend past 90 degrees, which is terrible range of motion. and she wouldn't go to the hospital because she can't afford it. i can't help them anymore. there's nothing else i can do. i had this urge to call pk for some reason, when i started to get really sad. i haven't talked to him since i was out there. it's his birthday here in detroit already.

i'm going to try really hard to buck up but i have pms and greys anatomy was sorta soul crushing at the end and i have nothing really exciting going on and it's lonely here, and in my life all the time.

messy mess mess

is what i've been for days now. i cry for no reason. i get angry for no reason. it's fucking retarded. the weather is not cooperating.

i am behind on my savings goal, by a lot. at this moment, may 11, i have $4000. i am about $500 behind what i wanted to have. unless i start seeing don again, i'm in trouble. he's recovering from his hip replacement, goes back to work in a week, so i bet he'll start calling again. i certainly hope so.

iron and wine is tomorrow. the kills was saturday, they were eh. i would have rather been at cursive. at least i got to hang out with matt and rosylin the next day but it sure would have been nice to see ted.

oops

it's been a while.

i'm totally sick. i called in sick today for the first time in my life. i've been napping, drinking water and tea, soup. boo.

it's probably just exhaustion from sharon's visit, which was a non-stop fun but tiring adventure.

one month to india. oooohhh....

i'm thinking about pushing back my move date, almost a year. i could get out of debt and try to save money on top of it.

blah. i've sucked at this.