my little valentine

That would be no one, maybe Lola. I don't know. Well, it's Valentine's day and it doesn't really matter. I'm not sad that I'm alone today, it really shouldn't matter. When i was in L.A. Pk and I were at dinner at this little restaurant and all the tables were really close together. There was an older couple next to us and one of them was from Seattle or something Pacific Northwest like that. They were listening to our conversation and we eventually talked to them a little bit. Valentine's day came up and one of them, I think the lady, said that the man should appreciate her every day of the year. His response was 'I'll start tomorrow.'

Anyway, last night on the drive home I did get a little nostalgic about when things were good with Kevin. i mean, I loved him and he had so many qualities about him that were so good. In the end the bad outweighed the good but I remember Valentine's day with him. He never had any money but he tried. He always took me someplace nice, made me a mix cd, did something. He could be very thoughtful. It was one of the good qualities.

This year i have spent all day with Lola, finishing up Battlestar Galactica and cleaning. I'm meeting EA at Irazu and then we're going to see Coraline. I might go see an Elvis impersonator but we'll see.

It snowed again but it's not that unpleasant outside.

I get really nervous about moving, about being alone out there. I wonder if it's worth it, worth what I'll be sacrificing here. If I have all this doubt, is it really the right thing to do? I have so many months to decide. I feel like I've told everyone that I'm going to do it and even if I wanted to change my mind I might be too stubborn to, and that's just stupid.